The TERROR of your impending debut novel release, by L.D. Rose

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Long time, no talk (blog?), my friends! I’m finally out of my editing cave and I recently finished my first final galley.

My very first final galley.

And I need a therapy session, so I’m taking it out on you. *cackles*

When I received my first round of edits in my inbox, I was fired up. I was like, “YES, LET’S DO THIS!” and I opened that doc and I plowed through that round like a beast, making all the changes and sending it right back to my (superb) editor. I was pleasantly surprised at the lack of red. I was like, “Oh, wow, I guess I’m GOOD, haha!”

Then I got the second round.

And there was red. LOTS of red. Bloody freaking red extravaganza.

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Not so good after all, dumbass.

So I swallowed my pride and plowed through the second round, learning so much throughout the process that it made up entirely for my bruised ego. Then I sent it back, knowing my MS was infinitely better for it. Soon after, I received the final galley.

THE FINAL GALLEY.

*dun-dun-dun*

Now, don’t get me wrong, minimal changes were made to the galley. But that’s when the panic set in.

This is it.

The last round.

The last round before the entire world sees it. THE ENTIRE WORLD.

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As I went through that last round, I couldn’t rid myself of this chokehold of anxiety. I started to second-guess myself over and over, and the doubts settled over me in a thick, suffocating blanket. This story is dumb, the writing is dumb, you are dumb, THE WHOLE BOOK IS DUMB, AHH! But I kept my head down and crawled my way through it. By the end, I fell in love with the story again (no, really, I did), and it was ready.

I shipped it back to my (did I mention superb?) editor, clicking that “SEND” button with a melodramatic tap of my keyboard.

This was it. It was over.

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Next stop on this crazy train: promotion.

Shortly afterwards, I revealed my cover and had a giveaway, and that’s when shit really started to get real. My family tracked down my writer alter-ego on the internet and my husband started talking to everyone about it. People I never thought would be remotely interested in my book have been reaching out to me, injecting a fear so potent through my veins that I’m paralyzed by the response.

OMG.

OM freaking G.

People are actually getting excited.

And even though I’m terrified as all hell, I’m excited too. Maybe this book will make a difference to someone. Maybe someone will relate to my hero and heroine, maybe it’ll stay with people long after they finish reading it, maybe it’ll stir some controversy (good or bad). Even if it’s just a form of pure, mindless entertainment, it’s going to be out there, and I have to brace myself for whether people love it…

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…or hate it.

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But one thing is certain, I’m blessed to have the opportunity to share it with you, dear reader, whether or not you pick it up, whether you love it or hate it, or regardless of whether it stays with you.

And that’s all this author could hope for.

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L.D. Rose is a neurotic physician by day, crazed writer by night, and all around wannabe superhero. She writes paranormal romance and urban fantasy, but she’s been known to delve into horror, sci-fi, and medical suspense on occasion. Her debut novel, RELEASING THE DEMONS, is due out in the summer of 2015 with Soul Mate Publishing. L.D. Rose is a member of the RWA, FF&P, NEC-RWA and CoLoNY. She currently lives in Rhode Island with her studly hubby, her hyperactive boxer, and her two devious cats.

Where to find her:

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About L.D. Rose

Physician by day, award-winning author of dark PNR/UF by night. Music addict. Wannabe superhero. Amazon author page: amazon.com/author/ldrose
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27 Responses to The TERROR of your impending debut novel release, by L.D. Rose

  1. jcstockli says:

    Awe yeah! What it’s all about, both terrifying and exciting!! It’s going to be great 😀

  2. AmesGrace says:

    I loved ur post. I mean, LOVED it! It completely summed up how I felt and still feel while anxiously waiting to hear back from Debby after my second round if edits (total slaughter-many deaths I might add-tons of blood). It’s like u are right here with me by my side or inside my head (now THAT should scare u or at least my husband always says it would scare him). Anyway, thanks for the amazing post and letting all of us fellow new writers know that they are not alone. 👍 👊

  3. You’ve just summed up the real world of writing. Great post!! It really is such an emotional mix. I remember realizing–after all that hard work–that people would be reading my book, reviewing it! What a scary feeling! But congrats anyway, because it’s going to be great. Enjoy your promo and I can’t wait to read the book 🙂

  4. I love your post and your media inserts.

    Remember Gloria Gaynor’s classic: I Will Survive.

    Good luck

  5. No worries, Darling One. Your editor still cries over Chapter One. Onward, Ho!

  6. Maura Troy says:

    Excited and scary is a potent mix. So much for that image of authors leading a quiet and dull life at the keyboard, eh? I’m so happy for you for your release. Enjoy the ride!

  7. Loved your post, Linda! You have summed it up very well; the fear, the joy, the nerves you feel on an impending release. I went through the same thing, and I’m sure I will (again) with my second. Take a deep breath, and savor this moment. Congratulations, and I’m looking forward to reading it. xoxo 🙂

  8. Excited and scary are way better that boring and normal 🙂 That’s why the life of an author is so awesome! You have a great story and I know you’ll have much success. Can’t wait to read it! Best of luck ❤

  9. Beth Carter says:

    Haha. You nailed it, Linda. The entire process is exciting and terrorizing at the same time. Loved what you said about editing. And promotion. 🙂 On that note, where is your cover? I must have missed it last week. Congrats and I’m sure your debut will be a huge success!!

  10. Terri-Lynne DeFino says:

    First, I love all your gifs. They make me giggle. 🙂
    Second, how can a talented, intelligent woman ever have a moment of doubt. Modesty is for suckers, baby! Sing it long. Sing it strong. YOU ARE AMAZING. In every way possible.

    Third…So excited for you!!

  11. andreablythe says:

    I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU. And I can’t wait to read it and I give you hugs for the impending terror, because putting yourself out there is scary, so hugs.

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